Dear Dad, I genuinely love you dearly

To be honest, i don't really know what should i write, because i'm sucks on being cheesy.

The point is, hari ini aku ditelefon bapak. Beliau pergi keluar kota sudah lebih dari 1 bulan.

I called him on the phone and we talked for 40 minutes, can be said that was the longest conversation i had with him, though. He told me about things that bothers him, hurts him - but it ended up hurting me,too.

As long as i recall i could be someone to talked to - whenever my friends seeks for me, i've tried my best to give them the best advise i can afford to give. I listens and i responds. But how come when he called me i barely have something nice to comfort him? I didn't say anything nor giving him any advises. All i did was only "is that so?" ; "you shouldn't feel that way" - but little did he know that my heart ache too.

Thankfully, he didn't see me tearing up, i stayed silence so he wouldn't know that i'm crying.

I am aware though. "this man has nobody to talked to"

Considering his family literally not really respect him - plus my mom's side family weren't as well. Things getting heavier when i kept on thinking what should i do to make him feel at ease? because i was so lack of love, i barely can show him how much i cared. All i think about was "I should've have something to getting rid his anxiety" and stuffs like that. All i could do was only staying silence and listen to what was his mundane. But i didn't do anything at all.

this pic was taken on eid events (2014)